I stayed indoor all through the weekend revising all we had learnt for that week. I kept getting nervous as the new week drew closer. maybe because it was the week I would start the tutorial with Sharon.
I had tried to assure myself that all would be fine, but it didn’t do much because I kept getting nervous. how will I sit alone with her in a room and she wouldn’t notice I’m a shy guy. I pray I don’t embarrass myself when I’m with her. The new week came and I got prepared for my first lecture for that week. I took the campus shuttle that would take me directly to the building I was having my lecture. I didn’t realize I was in the same bus with my course mate, Sylvia, until she spoke to a lady beside her. I made sure she didn’t notice I was in the same bus with her. I quickly brought out money from my wallet and paid for the both of us without letting her know. I told the driver not to collect money from her when she tries to pay. I believed it was the right thing for me to do. when we got to our destination, she tried to pay but the driver told her that someone had already paid for her. she asked who was the person and the driver pointed at me. that was when she realized I was in the same bus with her. she approached me and glared at me. the smile I was trying to keep on my face disappeared immediately.
I was thinking she was coming to thank me, but the glare she just shot me made me nervous. she brought out some money from her purse and force it into my hand. “next time don’t try to pay for me without my notice. I didn’t ask for your help” she said to me in a note of warning. She shot me one last glance and walked out on me. I stood at that particular spot like a statue, staring at the direction she took. I tried to remember if I had said or done anything wrong to her before for her to direct such anger to me, but I couldn’t seem to remember anything. this was too much for me to bear. I have never been this embarrassed all my life. I wished I never paid for her. I wished I had known this would happen, I would have avoided it. my leg suddenly became too heavy for me to lift. I managed to plod ahead to where my first lecture was holding. All through the lecture, I didn’t concentrate. I kept trying to figure out what I could have done to that lady that made her behave that way towards me. could it be that someone might have said something bad about me to her. all my effort to figure out what I could have done was fruitless, because I couldn’t seem to remember anything. I stole glances at her from time to time to see if she was looking at my direction, but all her attention seemed to be focused on what the lecturer in class was saying. After lecture, I went to the school restaurant to have lunch. just when I was at the counter placing my order, Kate walked into the restaurant with two of her friends. I believed they had come there to have lunch also. I tried as much as possible to hide behind the guy standing at the counter with me, but my effort was fruitless because she saw me immediately she entered the restaurant. she walked towards me with her friends right beside her. “hi” I said immediately they got to me. “wow Christian! we meet again” she said “yeah” I responded. “you came here to have lunch right” she said “not really. I’m not having my lunch here. I’m buying in a take away pack” I responded. I initially wanted to have my lunch in the restaurant, but seeing Kate and her friends made me changed my mind, knowing fully well that I would have to be on the same table me them. That would be deadly for me. I might just collapse unknowingly. “okay, but you are paying for my lunch.” Kate said “no problem, you can order for anything you want” I responded “are you not buying for us also?” one of her friend asked. “you can order for anything you want also” i said to her “thanks” the lady responded “you are welcome” I said I waited for them to order for whatever they wanted so that I could foot the bill. Just when I was about paying for their meal, the other lady beside Kate distracted me. “sorry, I hope you don’t mind paying for the one I’m taking away” she said My mood suddenly changed when she made that statement. I tried not to show the look of disappointment on my face. so if I pay for your meal here, I would still pay for the one you will take away. am I your father? That was what I wanted to say but dare not say it. “you can have anything you want” I said against my decision. I watched with teary eyes as they all place their order. the amount of food they ordered made me wonder if they wanted to feed their families with it. it was certain that I would trek back home, because I was sure there won’t be any money left with me when they are done with their order.