I left the garden and went straight home. I got home exactly 5:55pm. I lay on my bed to rest a bit before Sharon comes. any moment from now, she will be here. I thought I waited for the next 30 minutes but she didn’t show up. I thought she said she was on her way already.
I waited for the next ten minutes but she still didn’t show up. I took my phone from my bed to call her. immediately I took my phone, her call came in. I picked the call immediately. “hello Sharon, where are you?” I asked “I’m very sorry Christian. I won’t be coming anymore. I got a call from the course adviser that all course rep should assemble in school. I’m on my way to the school now” she said “you are going back to the school by this time. isn’t it late already. can’t they wait until tomorrow” I said “have you forgotten that tomorrow is Saturday.” she said “yes that’s true, but whatever they have to tell you guys should have waited until Monday” I said “it can’t wait. it’s very urgent. it’s concerning the event our department is organising on Monday. The HOD wants to pass all necessary information to us.” she responded “oh I see. till Monday then” I said. “yes. I will talk to you later” she said “okay” I responded and ended the call. I took a deep breath. ‘ the day of the event is already very close. so by Monday, I will be standing in front of a very large crowd.’ I thought. I don’t even know if I’m prepare to face the crowd. I have never faced such crowd before, so I don’t know what it feels like to be standing in front of a large crowd. I have already memorized all what I will say, but I can’t be so sure that my mind will not go blank when I see the large crowd. can I actually do this? could it be that my mind is only trying to discourage me. could it be that discouraging voice that is speaking to me now. Sylvia said that I shouldn’t listen to the voice, because it will only get me nervous. talking of Sylvia, I haven’t seen her since the last incident. I have to go and explain things to her. I stood up from my bed, took my phone and left my room immediately. twenty minutes later, I was standing beside Sylvia’s door. I waited for the next 5 minutes before I finally knocked. “hold on I’m coming” I heard from within. she opened the door a minute later. I could see anger visibly on her face the moment she saw. “Sylvia I am…………..” she entered her room back and slammed the door without allowing me to complete my sentence. I waited to see if she would open the door but she didn’t. I waited for the next 30 minutes but she still didn’t open the door. when I was tired of waiting, I turned and left her place. I got home 30 minutes later. I lay on my bed immediately I entered my room. ‘Sylvia is very angry with me. I need to look for a way to make her forgive me. she doesn’t want to even see my face. let me just leave her for now. I will talk to her later, when I believe she won’t get angry. for now, let me just focus my mind on the speech I will deliver on Monday. I need to prepare myself very well so that I won’t mess up. I took the book Sylvia gave me and busied myself with it immediately. I opened to the page that contain step by step guide on how to overcome stage fright. the book has really helped me, and I believe if I follow the guideline in the book, I will be able to face the crowd on Monday. I read the book until 1am. I finally slept off when I was tired of reading, with the aim to continue when I wake up. I woke up very early. I quickly took my bath and had breakfast. I busied myself with the book when I was done with all my chores. I made sure I practice some tips as I read. I didn’t do anything else aside from reading and rehearsing. The next day which was Sunday, I continued same way. I read until my vision became blur. then it occurred to me that I have over read. I couldn’t sleep that night, because I knew that once I wake, it would be the day of the event. I was more than ready for the event, but I was still very scared. I was scared because it would be my first time of facing such crowd. I was sure I will do very fine if I follow the guidelines in the book, but that discouraging voice wouldn’t let me be. it kept sounding it clearly to me that I will embarrass myself. the voice was doing no good to me, because I was already having headache. I tried to get some sleep for me to wake up early but couldn’t. after 30 minutes of restlessness, I finally slept off. I woke up hours later. I turned my gaze to the wall clock and realized it was 6:25am. the event will begin by 11am. there won’t be lectures, so my only reason of going to school was because of the event. I had my bath and got ready for the event. I made sure I had enough breakfast. I left home exactly 10am. I got to school 30 minutes later. I went straight to the place the event will hold. the event will actually hold in the school main auditorium. the number of people I saw when I got to the main auditorium made my heart missed a beat. the crowd was more than I expected. the auditorium was already filled up when I got there. the stage was already set for the event, and I could see some important figure already sitting on the high table. the minister of finance was already seated, and the minister of education was also seen sitting beside the minister of finance. the vice chancellor of the university was also seen on the high table. some of the lecturer in our department were seen occupying the front seat in the auditorium. the other two students that will also deliver speech were also seen occupying the front seat. about ten thousand people were occupying the seats in the auditorium, waiting patiently for the event to begin. the M.C was also seen standing on stage. I quickly went to sit beside the other two students that will deliver speech. Five minutes later, the event began. The M.C started by recognizing the presence of all important figure in the auditorium. After five minutes later, the HOD went up stage to introduce the event properly. some lecturers also went up stage one after the other to speak. now, it was time for the students to deliver there speech. The M.C called the first student and he went up stage to deliver his speech. I was really nervous. my heart was pounding. I didn’t pay attention to what the guy on stage was saying. I might be called next. can I do this? I asked myself. Everyone gave the guy on stage a big round of applause when he was done. he walked back to sit on the seat he was previously occupying. The M.C went back on stage with a book in his hand. “that was a great speech” the M.C said “now the next student on the list is Christian Owen” My heart paused immediately I heard my name.